Im officially leaving xanga..

And.. going back to my diary

GOOD-BYE...

Nhu finally graduated! So much has been going so just a quick recap. Jenn, Ming, and Nhu graduated! Congratz! Luckily I was feeling much better after my wisdom teeth so I was able to go. I was worried I was still feeling sick. Vi and Linh met at my house. Then Tien Me Nhu and Jenn went to West. Supposedly it started at 4 but Minh said 5, so when we got there, it was over haha. Took a while to find him. Saw the rest of TL group. Took some pictures, we dropped Jenn off for her dance then went to eat buffet. Ugh hes such a butt! Totally making fun of me cause I couldnt eat anything due to my wisdom teeth. Then we went to D&B, so much better than Chuckie Cheese. I havent been there in such a long time.

Next day was Jenn and Nhu grad. Woke up @ 7 to help Jenn do her hair. Vi came to my house at like 8. I forgot to tell him that her grad at 10.woopse. LOL.Waited until Minh arrived then I drove to Jordan. Met up with Mom, Tam, and Tien. Huy came later, took some pictures then left to eat. We got some jamba for the graduate then went to his place and rested for Nhu Grad. Slept then at 1 headed to Bolsa. For once, I DID NOT GET SUNBURNED! .  Waited for Nhu to get out and it was ridiculous! People sure don't understand to move out of the streets!! -_-. Her parents are so cute! they dressed all nicely and happy. I like them. Headed to TeaZone with the rest of the gang and hung out. We got tired so me, him, Jenn and Minh left early to go home and rest. Slept again. God I sleep so much at his place. At 6, we headed to International Buffet. Brings back memories from my grad last year. I forgot about that place. After we ate, we headed to Tien's house and we took the Van and small car and headed to the beach. I LOVE THE BEACH! For us girls in dresses, it was cold! We walked all the way out to the shore. We had to keep holding our dresses down because the guys kept lifting us up -_-. Overall, the day turned out pretty well, except later on that night. *sigh* but we didn't let that stop us.

Friday: Tien, me and Jenn went to eat Dim Sum. Nhu was too tired from Grad night to join us. We had the most funniest conversation ever! We picked minh up then headed to Bella. We watched Kung Fu Panda. We loved the movie, it was hilarious. I would definately reccommend it. He dropped us off so we could get ready, then went to his house for beach. I love the beach, but I do not like to get dark. I get dark so easily, Im starting to look like burnt chocolate :(. Later that night we went to eat Korean BBQ. It was soo GOOD!

Summer session is pretty interesting. Im loving my Econ class, but 6-10:30 is scary, especially when I have to walk to my car and there noone around.Boo.  On the other hand, Soc is fun but too dry, 4 hours of it and worse. but I can survive. Ironically, I always have class with Nouka. It meant to be! haha too much hw and reading and exams already next week! Gotta study for that. Little things you do and say make me smile. Anyway, time to call it a night, somehow he got me to go hiking with him tomrorow. Im so going to die!! Its okay as long as I got Nhu along with me, We shall die together! lol.

I can't wait until our Six Flag trip!

Such a depressing talk last night. I know they mean well and are only looking out for my best interests. What do you do when you are so torn between your hearts desire and the truth? Even if i follow my heart, I know they wont accept it, and I'd rather not put all of us through that awkward position. Its hard because I've chosen this path, this is something I want, despite how the future might turn out. I choose this.After that, you just can't pretened that everything is okay..

Its your birthday but as always you are missing. I felt so miserable yesterday. The Vicodin really affected me. Slept all day and Nhu came by to visit. Thanks Nhu. Someone made me very upset, but then we talked it out and I got over it. At night went to the living room and read but then I got a tired and a headache so I went to sleep.  Its been a long time since we talked about you. We were gathered in the room looking through pictures and reminiscing the memories. So much has happened since you left. I still find it hard to believe. I just hate the feeling of emptiness whenever the holidays or birthdays come around. There always this fragment of hope missing within all of us.  Its funny because we all keep things to our selves and not express our feelings to each other even though we are family. I guess its because we developed that ever since we were kids. It feels good to talk about him sometimes, but I think sometimes its better to leave him buried, to not reopen the old wounds. To not dwell on the past, but rather look towards the future. Easier said than done. I know he is proud of us, of who we became. Just difficult to get through knowing he completely disappeared from our dream.